you think i'm lucky.his brows furrow, but there's no anger. just a solemn, bitter frown as he mutters. theres a pain in his hind leg, and his neck felt naked without mother's amulet. when had he ever been lucky?
but ishmira didn't know that. nor should she. there was nothing to tell her that mattered. luck had abandoned him before he was born, there was no other story to tell.
so ghelan doesn't refute anything she says. the lanzadoii son instead sits as she finishes stripping him of any might, leaving the boy stirring in her words and drinking them down like bitter medicine. guilt sits uncomfortably now in the pit of his stomach. and all ghelan can do is let it linger. let it simmer, and boil.
he can't do anything for her now, but to listen to her. to understand her pain, if only a little. he can't change the past, he can't inherit the blood of a different man to call father, and there was no hope for changing kusaxasaa. but ghelan can strive to do better.
and yet something else mixes with that guilt. rather, the guilt had joined an old, bitter rage.
i'm sorry.he repeats, unable to find any other words for her.
he's a bad man.. i wish he wasn't. i thought he'd changed, you know.. after his eye was taken.he mumbles, a stark contrast to the building pressure of anger that ballooned. it was desperate to burst out, but not towards her. ghelan was saving it.
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character is rated 3-3-3 · username is ghelan